i want to go asian age.shouldnt have gone for the meeting this mrng. then i wouldnt feel so bad abt not going. BLEH
ok. my blog is so dead and stuff. its quite pointless to blog cos i dont think anyone ever comes here anymore but ohwell. blogging for the sake of blogging.
im damn sick of studying alr. and im like desperately trying to figure out what the first semester stuff is about cos i slacked my first semester away. which is damn stupid. i kind of wished i took CTs cos then i would have studied for it. but then again if i took CTs and did badly, my parents would be giving me a damn hard time now.
well anyway. so im not going asian age anymore. which sucks. cos it was the meet i wanted to qualify for at sing open cos its in JAPAN. but nvm lah. surprisingly i dont really mind that much. like half half. ohwell. hopefully i have other meets at the end of the year then it wont be so bad. but at the moment, i reaally wanna go but my dad says dont change mind alr. focus on studying. bleh.
hai. nvm. i have a lot to look forward to after promos. first priority: get promoted. haha. seriously. if i do damn badly at promos i can probably forget about going for anymore overseas meets. so this sucks.
but i will just try my best. i guess. if i can endure studying like mad for the next 2 months which i doubt i can cos its just not me.haha. but must try lah. and take breaks once in a while. aka trng. or just slacking.
but my mum has sort of cornered me. in the sense that IF i dont do well at promos, and i tell her that i tried my best. it means my best isnt good enough to cope with swimmign and studies. i think in rgs the reason i studied was cos i needed to do well enough to satisfy my parents to swim. like they will threaten with things like if you dont do well you cant go for the ssc kunming trng camp for eg. but it was a lot easier in rgs cos things were tested in modules.
you know back in those ssc days, and some other ppl will complain to me that their parents always scold them if they dont do pb or beat this person. i would do anything for my parents to be like that. that actually support my swimming like fully. but im not good enough for my mum to think that swimming is worth supporting.
and theres As next year and i really dont know if i should just keep swimming. but i guess i will as long as i like it.
anyway. i want the rome people to faster come back. esp ting and rainer. haah. trng hsa been damn -.-. its like self trng lah. like on saturday mrng only me, joel, nick chew and jon chen did the set. even though we didnt finish it.
rachie!(: 
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